today was a busy day..
work, school and life started back up and we needed to jump in,
regardless of how unsettled we were.
Thomas took Eli to school (his first day since "graduating" to preschool!) and i headed off to work. usually i take Eli but since we're on the opposite side of town it makes sense for Thomas to drop him off on the way to work. this also means more work for him.. so i'm feeling bad for that. but we made it happen.
half of our laundry is in the car, the other half in our room. some of our books are here, and some of Eli's toys are there. our belongings are scattered and our comforts have evolved a bit. our rhythm is incomplete and off, but we are working on creating a new one.
in the havoc of the afternoon i found rest in Exodus 12:39:
With the dough the Israelites had brought from Egypt, they baked loaves of unleavened bread. The dough was without yeast because they had been driven out of Egypt and did not have time to prepare food for themselves.
the immediate call for the Israelites to head out and take their belongings meant carrying the bread dough that had not yet received yeast. they literally got up and ran at the call of the Lord, so abruptly that they took a recipe-in-progress because that was what they would need to eat. yeast is they key to a successful loaf of bread.. but the Lord found a way to make a very holy part of the Jewish tradition from something "incomplete". unleavened bread is still prepared and eaten during Passover as a symbol of this holiday; this time when the Lord passed over His chosen people and brought them out of captivity.
today i realized that, though we are not Jewish, i feel we can find our own unleavened moments in our mini-exodus. everything we have known to be as routine and predictable as a basic bread recipe has been completely flipped upside down and turned inside out. now, just like an unleavened loaf, we must find a way to take what we have and go on until we reach our new home. in this moment, we must trust that God has His mighty hand on our lives and all of its details, and though some of the key components that keep it rising beautifully may be missing, that does not mean we are without nourishment, tradition, family and faith.
what has God removed from your life?
what rhythms is He changing?