well.. it's here
hopefully a cold that will not turn into the flu
Eli woke up in the middle of the night with a fever
and we slept together on the couch the rest of the night.
we stayed home today.
he hasn't done much except snuggle and drink diluted juice.
i've been working on homework and thought I'd share our day.
a day that involves kicking the cushions off of the couch
enjoying light snacks
keeping the juicer on the counter the whole day
along with our toolbox for sick days
(it's staying out all day; might as well be on a pretty platter)
saline, saline wipes, aspirator
cough & fever medicine
(eli likes to put bandaids on imaginary booboos and collect kisses)
i absolutely hate when he gets sick
i feel awful for putting him in daycare;
he probably shares these viruses with his little friends
i feel like i don't take good enough care of him;
that i'm too focused on school and work
and not spending enough time with him
i'm afraid he'll have another seizure if the fever gets too high
i just feel vulnerable to all kinds of maternal insecurities
i've prayed over him a lot lately,
and days like this come as an answer and reminder
that it's time to slow down and reconnect
all i can think about is the homework i have due
and the work i'll miss
but He tells me to focus on Him
this this day was created by Him
and that I'm strong as long as I keep my focus on Him
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation,
by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.