As we begin the new year with fresh resolutions, we cannot help but recall the ones we have left incomplete. It seems like even the greatest intentions cannot make our deepest desires come true. We gear our entire first day around putting new habits into practice, complete with gym memberships, a fridge full of produce, or a brand new journal, and yet, we still fall short.
In my personal experience, I have found that I have let my ideas and goals fall behind simply because I chose to remain stuck where I was. I decided that I would begin to build a new life around a painful past.
Well, think about that logic:
If you have a hole in the ceiling.. you don't just move the couch out from under it.
this is not going to be the normal series found on this blog, but rather, the direct reflection of what i will be living this month. yes, the blog should be like this on the regular.. but there is enough editing and scheduling to mask the chaos that truly exists in my life.
as of today, however, i am forced to forgo that schedule
///// today, we are homeless.. in a sense. we have ended a lease to stay with a friend as we pray for a house and plan for a future. we certainly have options if this house does not come through, but in the meantime we are living on, well, a prayer.
in the meantime we are in "travel mode" as we live out of suitcases and sacrifice comfort.
in the meantime we are storing up our belongings and taking only the bare necessities..
(ok, I do have more than a couple maxi dresses in my bag)
in the meantime we are spending more time together and less time just together-in-the-same-room-while-the-tv-is-on-and-I'm-doing-dishes.